All of us, no exemption, have wished “If I could just turn back the time…”
Honestly, even I wish that.
Now that the pressure is continuing to lower down my self-esteem, somehow by just looking at the past I can get the strength to start or to continue with my life.
Well, I want to admit that I’m not living the time of my life (of course, I’m still at the learning age). But sometimes I do feel old with all the pressures and problem common to the teens in my age today. Looking back at the past makes me feel I’m me in somehow in an alternate universe because every “present” I have is really different from my “past” or in simpler way my every today is different from my yesterdays.
Where do I look back?
Well, for every situation i encounter, I look at my different experiences in the past. But these days, I always look back at my first year HS.
Ruby 2010. Our section. Like the gem stone, our class shines. Though each of is unique, we shine in a great manner that none of us can explain. We’ve been through different tasks and problems but now and always, I’m proud to be part of it. (To all Ruby who is reading this, if ever, I’m really proud.)
Well, mostly if I look back to Ruby because of my personal experiences with each of them and somehow remembering these experiences together makes the whole Ruby, Ruby.
Let me start.
The male dormers. Well, honestly speaking I’m really not close to them but they are always my groupmates and by that, I started to know them. They are really hard working. But behind this hardworking attitude they have, they are intelligent and somehow naughty. Somehow their naughtiness is really not good for me…at first but as the year pass by, I was able to adapt to them.
The female dormers! I love them! I was able to stay in there room during the stargazing! They are really amazing! Though their different from each other, One is very serious in academics but she is very friendly and complete, orderly and very fashionable. Then the other one is really outgoing! I spent a lot of time with her sharing favorites and stuff. Well, I really like them both especially how they grow to what they are to day! J&J! 
Then boys first. In my point of view, Ruby boys are somehow seperate in groups – by friends but when put together to do a certain task, sometimed its still unbelievalble and surprising for me to see that they work together in harmony. Well, the guys are really outgoing. Sometimes some of my brain cells die for them to be understood. But their naughtiness is really a new experience for me. They are just awesome. Cracking Jokes anytime and anywhere. They make the mood brighter. You may think that it is impossible for boys not to hit under the belt. Ruby boys also do it but not always. When they know the person can take it they will do it but if the person can’t they do it by their own. In front of girls~ this is hilarious, can’t forget these moments~ they act like a gay even I believe that are not a gay! I just can’t explain it. These guys are really talented. Basketball, music, computer things - they’ve got it. This is why I’m proud of these boys! (What am I? A sister? A mother? A grandmother? They look at me like that!)
Oh, my group! Plaid skirts! (inactive nga lang.) Well, somehow were also seperated but not seperated like girls. We even have meetings every after PE or so! Well, Ruby girls are really active, they really are fashionable, music lover, hardworking and athletic girls! They are really nice to have because all of us put our 110% guts in everything we do! We rock!
So, you may be wondering why can’t I tell everything in details. Well, even its very selfish of me, I want to keep it all to myself. Because I have the feeling that once I share it, if I remember it, there will be no thrill.
Well, that’s a good memory. I also like Ruby because of our teachers! How I miss them. These days I really visit them and I really appreciate them! Our adviser that time is really motherly to us. She gives all our needs! Thanks Ma’am! Other teachers are also motherly to us thats why I was able to complete my year with a smile! I really love them!
Now, I’m not sure if this year, I will remember it. I don’t konw what lies ahead. But I’m sure, there will be a time that I will glimpse to this very moment.
But today, I’m also proud of Ruby because even seperated in different section, they are still with their old classmates. Though I’m not included or being left out, I’m still proud of it. Saying that I’m watching from afar makes me feel old but it’s okay. As long as they are happy, I’m satisfied.
Ruby 2010.
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